I was part of a band of mercenaries of women that, in our travels came across a large farm completely abandoned. No animals no ppl besides three large geese fawn in color. They were very friendly. The leader of the mercenaries decided with my experience with farm life didn't question the lack of people or animals we would station up here on the farm since there was food, space, water and lots of tools and equipment to get the farm back up and running. The three large geese the next morning were clearly hungry so I started looking through the buildings for where food might have been kept. Finding eventually a barn were several large bins were. All still topped with food, fresh too. I made a comment to one of the girls that was strange. She stated maybe the people who owned the farm perviously were raided and dragged off in a hurry along with several of the animals. I pointed out if that were the case why was there zero signs of a struggle? She just shrugged told me not to think about it too much. So I fed the geese some food and continued sorta looking through the buildings to see what we were working with. And on the hunt for a small bucket to get the geese water. Finding one Large barn almost on the edge of the property that upon opening the door there was a perfect small bucket in the barn. However, it was three or four very large steps down in this barn. When opening the door of this barn it was very strange. One you felt something wasn't right the air was thick, heavy, it felt wrong to be there. The entire interior consisted of large steep, concrete almost stairs. Into nothing but musty blackness. It almost made you dizzy as you looked down into the dark. There was a suspended rail system that hung from the middle that disappeared into the black abyss. Finding a long rope nearby I decided to loop it over the rail so I could fetch the bucket. After I tide the rope around myself for support I began my descent down the first two steps. As I went to go down the trid I began to become overwhelming dizzy unable to differentiate from up or down calling to the girl above to throw me another rope and help pull me up and out. I grabbed the rope and as she began to pull me up it was like my eyes and mind were being pulled to look into the dark below. The panic was very real as I climbed up as fast as possible. The world spinning, unable to tell if I was actually climbing up or down the stairs. Once I was at the top and back on solid ground I took the extra rope and tide the doors of the barn shut tight both of us agreeing to never go in there again.
Your dream is rich with symbolism and motifs that suggest themes of survival, the unknown, and self-discovery. Let’s break it down in detail.
The Setting: Abandoned Farm The deserted farm can represent a variety of subconscious feelings. It may symbolize a place of potentials yet untapped — a reflection of a stage in your life where you are able to start anew. The emptiness could indicate a sense of abandonment or a personal experience where you feel disconnected from certain aspects of yourself or your life.
The Mercenary Band of Women Being part of a female mercenary group signifies strength, resilience, and camaraderie. This part of the dream highlights your reliance on other women, community, and teamwork, suggesting that you may be in a time of seeking or valuing alliances in your waking life. The mercenary role could be a reflection of your active, combatant approach to life, perhaps indicating that there are challenges you are prepared to face head-on.
The Three Friendly Geese Geese are often symbolic of communication and teamwork, somewhat echoing your collective dynamic in the mercenary group. Their friendly nature implies that there is lightness and warmth present, even in a seemingly desolate environment. The geese could also represent instincts or intuitive parts of you that are craving attention and care.
The Mystery of Abandonment The narrative surrounding the farm's abandonment raises questions about vulnerability and past trauma. Your contemplation about the lack of signs of struggle and the desolation suggests a deeper introspection regarding your past or the history of environments or relationships you've encountered. There might be an unresolved issue or feeling that you are grappling with, wanting to understand why things are as they are.
The Black Barn with Steep Stairs This element introduces a more ominous tone. The barn is a representation of the subconscious, suggesting that it is a repository of fears, mysteries, or unacknowledged feelings and experiences. The thick, heavy air you felt signifies discomfort or anxiety about delving deeper into your own psyche.
The Descent and the Rope The steep steps that lead into darkness may symbolize the complexity of facing one’s deeper fears or unknowns. The dizziness you experienced reflects a sense of losing control or being overwhelmed when confronting these hidden aspects of yourself. Calling for help and the rush of panic you felt were powerful moments, illustrating the inner struggle to maintain balance in situations rife with uncertainty. The support of another person while confronting your fears points to the importance of seeking help when facing daunting challenges.
The Decision to Seal the Barn By sealing the barn shut, you’ve taken a proactive step toward self-protection and establishing boundaries. This ending indicates a conscious choice to block out certain aspects of your past or unconscious thoughts that may not serve you positively. It highlights a pivotal moment in self-awareness, acknowledging that while some parts of your history may be painful, it’s perfectly valid to decide what to engage with and what to set aside for your own emotional well-being.
Overall Interpretation Your dream appears to be a narrative about confronting the unknown parts of yourself and your past, balancing the demand for survival and the call of community. It suggests a struggle with feelings of abandonment or unresolved trauma, and reflects your desire for safety, security, and autonomy in navigating through life. The dream invites you to explore these themes further, presenting an opportunity for healing and growth, while encouraging you to recognize what parts of your life may need attention and care, and what aspects might be best left sealed away for now.